Change

Change is poignant, i remember back in 2001 i had to change schools because my mother could not afford to pay my fees since she was no longer working, just the thought of a public school made me sick to my stomach but i did not have much of a choice i remember flamboyantly clear that i got sick day in and day out but the reality of the matter was there was not really much i could do about it

A few years later at College i studied Business Administration it was a diploma for one year the next year i decided to do Financial Management then 2 months away from graduation i had to be a missionary and that enhanced another change in my life as scary as that sounded it was a bit exciting for a 23 year old who yearned for adventure,i was trying to find something to base my life upon,something in this strange world that goes on and on but only realized that as the years go by and time fades away, What used to be "good days" are now filled. Nothing is permanent except the change change is a necessary phenomenon in an active system changeless is deadly many a time we are unprepared for the change though we were longing for it often we find it difficult to accommodate and accept the change

All of us experience change in our lives. Change is the one constant in our lives. There are changes that we look forward to and change that we fear. However, one thing is for sure. Things will not stay the same no matter how much we would like them too. When a life change occurs, we have two choices in how to respond. We can despair that a change has come and assume that things will be worse, or we can look with excitement at the new possibilities that the change presents.

A few days ago i had yet to accept another change i habitually anticipate change but believe me this was no ordinary change, there are other situations in our lives or rather things we prefer as they are, it hit me so hard i was at the verge of breaking down when i remembered my mothers words, she used to say "life will always hit you hard at any given chance, so don't let life's disappointments to define you, the only thing you can do is hit back so hard so that tomorrow when you look back you will be pleased of what you elicited out of that sad situation"

So i embrace this change, i changed my mind i changed direction i changed how i viewed my reflection i changed right back to how i began exactly the same but a completely changed woman and i refuse to let this change be a hold up in my life though i have had change a countless times i still fear, the anguish change brings up it surrounds my sou.darkness creeps and swirles until,i am as black as coal, and deadly still. I whistle as though i do not care no matter if a verse I say,no matter if I kneel to pray, i still fear another change.