If i never killed anyone that day i admit i have self control alright, i had murderous thoughts i had a desire to just get up get the knife from the kitchen and stab the living day light out of the cheating bastard as i watched him in his sleep peaceful maybe even dreaming it just tore me apart how could he, how could he do this to me and still be able to sleep? those were the questions going on in my mind as i watched him i wanted him to feel the same pain i was in but the thought of getting arrested prevented me from doing it or it was just love my love for him would not let me as much as i was boiling with anger deep down in me i loved him, so i woke him up confronted him and he confessed to everything i mean what was there to deny anyway i had seen everything.
I always thought that certain things only happen to certain people until it happened to me, i don't know what came over my mind but for some odd reason i decided to go through his phone and i saw interesting things alright as i read all the massages, facebook inbox and bbm massages i came across this one interesting massage between him and some girl they were apparently seeing each other right under my nose i could have noticed the changes in behavior but i chose to give him a benefit of a doubt yeah i was right alright i suspected the snooping but i did not want to seem judgmental,
you know there are other people you would associate with cheating and the are others you just would not and he was that kind of a person you would not think he was capable of such, but is it not ironic that all the people we trust so much are always the ones who disappoints us at the end or who violates that trust as opposed to people that have a doggy character, well i learned my lesson the hard way, i know that now,I knew that this would happen that you would break my heart it was stupid of me not to listen I was stupid from the startyou told me you were different now I no you are all the same God gave me nothing... just a sh*t load of f*cking pain.It's hard for me to hate you it's hard for me not to care because always in my mind she is going to be there I want to forget it god knows I'm going insane am I listening to my heart or thinking with my brain?I wish I knew why you did it, what you were thinking at the time but then I know I don't want to know anything more would drive me insane.
Forgiveness in a relationship of love is essential. We all make mistakes
and we must make amends and fix the relationship. There is a certain
sadness in breaking the illusion of the perfect relationship. However,
for those that pass the hurdle of forgiveness, they will find that their
relationship is stronger and more meaningful than ever before. Before
the first fight, the relationship is like a fragile egg. Once that
illusion is broken the relationship becomes much stronger. You become
aware that your relationship can survive any disagreement.
I did not know how much i loved him till i learned just how much i can take from him, yet i did not forgive him because there is not anyone better than him but i did it because i loved him and it was that love that gave me the strength to forgive, when you are angry with someone that anger just takes away o much from you it robs you the confidence it robs you the freedom but once you forgive you own back your life and it is such an amazing feeling thereafter because it shows just how big you are from that person who might have wronged you, it does not matter what people have done to you take your power back by forgiving them you owe it to yourself never let any human being rob you of your deserved happiness and remember you can not punish yourself for other people's mistakes the only person that can make you happy is YOU, sing your way up when things are not in your favor because what do you add by being troubled of this and that and once you realize this you will know that you will regain your confidence. Own your life by forgiving people who wrong you
