Sky is the limit

Its amazing how its always the despised who make it tops in the end. i think the more people push you down it kinda create that drive in you to prove them wrong one way or the other.

Thabo visited my school in 2005 to motivate matriculates, i could be wrong but i think he had just published his book "this too shall pass" many of us relate to his story because its very few children who have parents who can afford a better education for and a very few of them make use of that opportunity. I had greater dreams had my mother able to afford fees, but i never let that discouraged me yes i did not become an Accountant i wanted to be i became a freelance journalist instead but i am proud of that because i got myself where i am

i have a dream to be published and if Thabo did it so can i he is called many things a writer, motivational speaker, a role model i call him a Hero, because he has proved that the flower that blossoms the most grows in the wilderness

I'll never give up fighting till the end
If I fall along the way I'll get up and try again
But never shall I accept the fact of defeat
I've set goals in life and those I must meet
But never will I let negativity hold me down
Those who think positive I keep them around
Never shall I dwell on things in the past
Bad times come but never do they last
I shall never give in to those who are weaker than I
If I give up now why not lay down and die
Never Give Up

Change

Change is poignant, i remember back in 2001 i had to change schools because my mother could not afford to pay my fees since she was no longer working, just the thought of a public school made me sick to my stomach but i did not have much of a choice i remember flamboyantly clear that i got sick day in and day out but the reality of the matter was there was not really much i could do about it

A few years later at College i studied Business Administration it was a diploma for one year the next year i decided to do Financial Management then 2 months away from graduation i had to be a missionary and that enhanced another change in my life as scary as that sounded it was a bit exciting for a 23 year old who yearned for adventure,i was trying to find something to base my life upon,something in this strange world that goes on and on but only realized that as the years go by and time fades away, What used to be "good days" are now filled. Nothing is permanent except the change change is a necessary phenomenon in an active system changeless is deadly many a time we are unprepared for the change though we were longing for it often we find it difficult to accommodate and accept the change

All of us experience change in our lives. Change is the one constant in our lives. There are changes that we look forward to and change that we fear. However, one thing is for sure. Things will not stay the same no matter how much we would like them too. When a life change occurs, we have two choices in how to respond. We can despair that a change has come and assume that things will be worse, or we can look with excitement at the new possibilities that the change presents.

A few days ago i had yet to accept another change i habitually anticipate change but believe me this was no ordinary change, there are other situations in our lives or rather things we prefer as they are, it hit me so hard i was at the verge of breaking down when i remembered my mothers words, she used to say "life will always hit you hard at any given chance, so don't let life's disappointments to define you, the only thing you can do is hit back so hard so that tomorrow when you look back you will be pleased of what you elicited out of that sad situation"

So i embrace this change, i changed my mind i changed direction i changed how i viewed my reflection i changed right back to how i began exactly the same but a completely changed woman and i refuse to let this change be a hold up in my life though i have had change a countless times i still fear, the anguish change brings up it surrounds my sou.darkness creeps and swirles until,i am as black as coal, and deadly still. I whistle as though i do not care no matter if a verse I say,no matter if I kneel to pray, i still fear another change.

A forgiving heart

If i never killed anyone that day i admit i have self control alright, i had murderous thoughts i had a desire to just get up get the knife from the kitchen and stab the living day light out of the cheating bastard as i watched him in his sleep peaceful maybe even dreaming it just tore me apart how could he, how could he do this to me and still be able to sleep? those were the questions going on in my mind as i watched him i wanted him to feel the same pain i was in but the thought of getting arrested prevented me from doing it or it was just love my love for him would not let me as much as i was boiling with anger deep down in me i loved him, so i woke him up confronted him and he confessed to everything i mean what was there to deny anyway i had seen everything.

I always thought that certain things only happen to certain people until it happened to me, i don't know what came over my mind but for some odd reason i decided to go through his phone and i saw interesting things alright as i read all the massages, facebook inbox and bbm massages i came across this one interesting massage between him and some girl they were apparently seeing each other right under my nose i could have noticed the changes in behavior but i chose to give him a benefit of a doubt yeah i was right alright i suspected the snooping but i did not want to seem judgmental,

 you know there are other people you would associate with cheating and the are others you just would not and he was that kind of a person you would not think he was capable of such, but is it not ironic that all the people we trust so much are always the ones who disappoints us at the end or who violates that trust as opposed to people that have a doggy character, well i learned my lesson the hard way, i know that now,I knew that this would happen that you would break my heart it was stupid of me not to listen I was stupid from the startyou told me you were different now I no you are all the same God gave me nothing... just a sh*t load of f*cking pain.It's hard for me to hate you it's hard for me not to care because always in my mind she is going to be there I want to forget it god knows I'm going insane am I listening to my heart or thinking with my brain?I wish I knew why you did it, what you were thinking at the time but then I know I don't want to know anything more would drive me insane.
Forgiveness in a relationship of love is essential. We all make mistakes and we must make amends and fix the relationship. There is a certain sadness in breaking the illusion of the perfect relationship. However, for those that pass the hurdle of forgiveness, they will find that their relationship is stronger and more meaningful than ever before. Before the first fight, the relationship is like a fragile egg. Once that illusion is broken the relationship becomes much stronger. You become aware that your relationship can survive any disagreement.


I did not know how much i loved him till i learned just how much i can take from him, yet i did not forgive him because there is not anyone better than him but i did it because i loved him and it was that love that gave me the strength to forgive, when you are angry with someone that anger just takes away o much from you it robs you the confidence it robs you the freedom but once you forgive you own back your life and it is such an amazing feeling thereafter because it shows just how big you are from that person who might have wronged you, it does not matter what people have done to you take your power back by forgiving them you owe it to yourself never let any human being rob you of your deserved happiness and remember you can not punish yourself for other people's mistakes the only person that can make you happy is YOU, sing your way up when things are not in your favor because what do you add by being troubled of this and that and once you realize this you will know that you will regain your confidence. Own your life by forgiving people who wrong you

Great Characteristics

Be attractive, but not conceited
Be charismatic, but not manipulative
Be confident, but not arrogant
Be aggresive, but not bully
Be ambitious, but not obstructive
Be intelligent, but not belittling
Be strong minded, but not inflexible
Be a leader, but not a dictator
Great characteristics with a wrong attitude robs the characteristics of its greatness!!

Perfection is not attainable, but if we chase perfection we can catch excellence

It’s amazing how one’s ability can stretch but you never know it unless you’ve tried

 

Dreamers are architects of greatness; dream long enough and hard enough and your dream

 Can be attained
 

 

Determination is in our dynamic imperative.

The only person that can limit you in life is you!!

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